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Being Happy by Distracting Unhappiness

Hai, setelah beberapa kali mencoba, akhirnya gue balik nulis lagi. Tentu nggak mudah, apalagi tema yang sekarang gue bahas adalah “Bahagia Dengan Caraku Sendiri” padahal gue sebenarnya tidak begitu baik-baik saja (efek pandemi). Maju-mundur buat ikutan kompetisi dari Satu Persen ini tapi ya, akhirnya gue mutusin buat coba in last minute.

Barusan gue bilang bahwa gue sedang tidak baik-baik saja. Tapi tidak baik-baik saja saat ini bukan berarti hidup gue keseluruhan itu jadi nggak bahagia ya. Enggak kok. Secara umum, hidup gue sebenernya masih adem ayem aja. Masih menyenangkan juga (gue masih bisa makan, tertawa, masih bisa diajak mikir dan sosialisasi. That’s enough right?) Cuma, belakangan gue sadar bahwa kesenangan, ketenangan, dan keceriaan yang hadir di hidup gue ini gampang banget ke-distract sama hal-hal yang tidak menyenangkan. Beberapa masalah dan hal-hal tidak menyenangkan yang menjadi distraction ini pada akhirnya membuat gue melihat seolah-olah hidup gue nggak lagi menyenangkan.

Seringkali, gue overthinking dalam merespon (lebih…)

You are My Prayer that is Granted

Saturday, June 24th 2017

To all my friends,
Today is the last day of Ramadhan in 2017. Tomorrow is our winning day, Ied Mubarak. We should be happy. But, I don’t know. I feel less happy this year. May be because I got period on the last 7 days of ramadhan. You know, it makes me feel like… I don’t repent yet at all and suddenly the end of ramadhan already comes. Or I just got sentimental because of the period itself? No idea.

As usual, I hang out with my friends when I come back home. I met (lebih…)

Perih Kubertahan

Seharusnya tak usah aku kasihan

Waktu kau bilang jangan tinggalkan

Karena pada akhirnya

kau akan selalu diperjuangkan

 

Entah mengapa di ujung jalan

Kaulah yang meninggalkan

Tolong, aku sudah tak tahan

Bisikanmu sudah tidak mempan

 

Saat kau mengabaikan yang perlahan renggang

lalu hilang

dan  menyerang yang berusaha bertahan

Lantas, apa yang bisa kulakukan?

 

Tolong, aku sudah tak tahan

Tolong, jangan aku kau tahan

 

 

 

Bogor, 26 Maret 2017

01:41

The Mahuzes

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Picture from here.

Bismillah

Assalamualaikum…

So this is actually essay for my Sosiologi Perdesaan- task. But somehow I want to publish it here. It tells about story from documentary moviep “The Mahuzes” by Watchdoc. Mahuze is one of clan from Malind ethnic group in Papua which is affected by impact of MIFEE’s (Merauke Integrated Food and Energy Estate) implementation.

PS : I am just an amateur and The Mahuzes is worth enough to watch. ‘Cause it reminds us something that Indonesian almost forget : Although we are one, we aren’s the same. (Btw asli ini bukan kampanye ya -___-) Lets check this out 😉

(lebih…)

Just Another Dream or?

“Sincerity and truth are the basis of every virtue.”

– Confucius

I was dreaming tonight, I’ll go visit my brother who (will) continue his study to Germany. In that dream, I study at England. Not yet. But I will. Doesn’t matter, indeed I am a dreamer.

But then I thought, so sad my parent couldn’t see my face and my brother’s at home. So I continue dreaming. I must looking for a person who can do videocall so he/she can help my parent to see me and my brother doing holiday in Germany. At least, my parent should have a handphone which support videocall.

This noun (on reality) I got message from my father. He said, “Mom got present, an apple phone, from his friend.” and I just, “Wow.”

I don’t know whether it’s real or just a dream. But I know that God hears. And He knows what sincere wish is 🙂

PS : Don’t forget to pray before you sleep. Have a nice dream. And if you get a nice dream when you asleep or awake… You are lucky, aren’t you?